Cod, not just a fish anymore

So for a while now I've been wondering what it would be like to take a few different drugs. It's kind of a lose-lose it seems in my head. On one side if I do happen to try them, there's an off chance something could go wrong and my friends, although they have made peace that I am who I am, may look down on it, and that's not something I'm all about if you catch my drift. On the other side, if I just decide not to do these drugs, and to be clearer the two in mind are x and boomers, however if I don't try this I feel like I could miss out on something that I though was well worth it. Don't get me wrong people say well if you liked it that's going to make you want to do it again, while this is true for most, it's more of a one time deal for me as I don't feel like melting my brain to mush or having whatever x does to you. So like I said, I'm drawn. Also, Call of Duty 4 can suck my dick, Veteran is too hard...